I had trouble sleeping last night, which must have been pretty obvious to Julia. She had gotten up at around 1:30 AM to use the bathroom and when she came back into bed, she gently put one hand on my shoulder and asked, “What’s wrong.”
I told her I was ok but… Well… She snickered softly and said, “Silly man. You must have forgotten who you’re talking to. Now… Let’s try this again. What’s wrong?” She then gave a gentle tug on my shoulder and asked, “Please turn over and face me if it doesn’t hurt too much?”
I did turn over and put a hand out in her direction, which she took and held against her chest. “Was I that obvious,” I asked her? She ran her fingers through my hair, tracing my face and said, “Maybe just a little.” She then said, “I could tell by your breathing that something was up and now you are soaked in sweat. Is it your back and legs again? I’m sure the weather isn’t helping your cause if that is the case.”
I told her it was more my left shoulder and chest area. She then thought for a moment and said, “And now I’m making you lay on it. Ok Mr. Why don’t you lay flat on your back. I know you don’t like to sleep that way. But I think I can help.”
So… I lay on my back and said, “I’m just afraid that if…” She kissed me and made a long soft shushing sound before kissing me deeply again. “I know that when you fall asleep on your back at night you sometimes have nightmares. That’s ok.,” she said. Then she added, “You can’t hurt me. It will be fine.”
Julia kissed me again and then sat on her side of the bed to my left as I lay facing the ceiling. She gave me an extra pillow and wordlessly made sure my neck was comfortably supported before beginning to massage my shoulders and chest area.
She said, “Is your stomach bothering you laying like this? I hear it talking to me.” Julia giggled at the sound as I began to speak, saying, “Not at the moment. But it is a little tight on the left side where I showed you last time that I had major indigestion.” Julia said, “Well… I think we’ll head that one off at the pass.”
After working on my chest, Julia began gently rubbing my stomach and massaging the muscles all throughout that area, gently but firmly as she snickered again and said, “Good boy Fido. Good boy.” I chuckled and said, “I feel like a Fido. You are too kind to me.”
Julia leaned right down in my face until we were nose to nose. Her hair was flowing all around our faces like a tent. She just stared at me motionless for what seemed like an eternity with a look that felt like it went right through me.
I felt like I was in the principal’s office for breaking a schoolhouse window when she finally said, “I’m not good enough too you.” Then Julia kissed me deeply and tenderly before resuming my massage.
I then said, “I feel like I’m too high maintenance sometimes.” Julia laughed softly and lovingly before replying, “Hardly. You don’t ask. You don’t mope. You don’t demand.”
She continued on saying, “And… Even when you don’t feel like it you give and give more than I have a right to expect from you without my even asking. High maintenance? My Ass. Men half your age are twice as wimpy and too self-centered to even be bothered with anything beyond their own needs. I should know, I’ve got more than a few of them and their wives coming to my practice on a regular basis.”
Julia then said, “Just relax and don’t be afraid to let go. I’ve got you. You’ll be fine. Don’t be afraid to fall asleep. I’ll make sure you don’t get into trouble if you do. I have a plan to put your mind at ease should you fall asleep on your back like this. We’ll be ok.” She then lovingly gave me another kiss on the lips and continued massaging my chest, arms stomach, and hands. She said she could feel the tightness in my left side that I was talking about, and that’s the last thing I remember.
I woke up from dreaming about trying to decide which account I should use for doing certain types of personal research. I was looking at the internet history on each account and thinking… “Which account do I not want anyone to see at all costs. The one that I used for researching Sussex County Escort Services, or the other account I used for looking for porn videos.” I finally decided at dream’s end that it just didn’t matter. There was no point in hiding my online activity from anyone. If they didn’t like what they saw, “Too bad.”
It then dawned on me that this was why I partly kept having dreams about Highlander and NCIS characters. Everyone on these shows was supposedly a good guy. But they had a history to hide. “Why should I hide the fact that I’m human?”
I was thrilled to finally understand the point of these dreams, even though I wasn’t sure how I should proceed with the information given. When people violate your space for years, even after you’re an adult, well… “Old habits die hard.” You just hide things and keep things in. But I shouldn’t have to do that, “Right?”
Maybe Julia has a point. Maybe I really do live in a stigma free zone. That certainly seems to be the case in this house, anyway. And… Uh… “Speaking of Julia.”
As I gently awoke and was processing my dream and its meaning, I discovered that I did indeed fall asleep on my back. I felt warm and totally relaxed and at peace. I felt the warm glow of Julia as she lay sleeping with her head on my chest and blankets all around us. She had a silk bathrobe on, which was open in the front and tucked under me a bit on each side under the blankets. I guess me lady was cold during the night.
A minute later I felt her lift her head and look up at me. I could only see the outline of her head. But I could feel her smile through her entire body as she said, “Good morning, babe. How do you feel?” I simply smiled in return.
Julia kissed me long and lovingly before sliding off me to head to the bathroom. It had to be 7:00 AM or so. At least, that’s what I thought. I was stunned to discover it was 10:30 AM when I asked Alexa what time it was.
Then I found the phones on the king-sized bed next to me. One was mine and the other was Julia’s work phone.
Julia silently glided back into the bedroom and sat down on the edge of the bed beside me saying, “No one called looking for you. And… I don’t have any appointments until 1:00 PM. True… I should have taken care of some insurance things and stuff this morning. But… I’ve got time and you and I are way more important.”
Then she leaned over and kissed me before slyly saying, “Now… Why don’t you head on into the bathroom and freshen up a bit before you come back to bed and give me some loving before we have lunch. You don’t mind having me before coffee, do you?” She laughed as she asked the question while slowly running her hand under the covers until her fingertips ever so gently brushed my pubic hair above my penis.
I just knew Julia had a big smile on her face as I moved off to use the bathroom. Even now, I can’t help but be grateful to Julia for her loving manner and the beautiful way she helped me start this day. “Thank God for this beautiful woman who truly is the epic love of my life.”