Warmth… Strong feminine arms connected to powerful hands with a tender touch… An athletic hard body… Soft silky skin and beautiful long hair… The smell of fruit and other soothing aromas that kind of put me in mind of a tropical beach… Sweet kisses and other body motions that clearly conveyed the intention to sensually soothe… That is what I remember most about the past few days.
When the shit hit the fan this weekend, I was a train reck and a half. All of the stress that had already been building within me due to a lot of little things building up in my personal and professional life… Well… “Julia was and still is my rock.”
When I woke this morning to light kisses, I felt… Well… I wanted to return the favor. But… When I started to move Julia said softly yet playfully, “Not yet. Go use the bathroom first and then come back here.”
So… In my mental half-awake haze, I did what she instructed, beginning to wonder what this day would have in store for me. I knew it was early. I just didn’t realize how early.
When I got back in bed, I felt those wonderful hands of Julia’s reaching towards me under the covers. She gently pulled me to her again saying, “We’ve got time. Lots of time today because I’m not working with clients until this afternoon.”
Then she kissed me for a long while, holding me to her, pulling me on top of her. And yet… When I reached down with my hand to see about inspiring a little life within myself down there… Julia gently yet firmly gripped my wrist and softly said, “No.”
When I looked at her questioningly Julia playfully said, “It will come when it comes. You need to worry about performing for me like you need a hole in the head. I know you want to. But, right now, your body is saying otherwise. Things will happen when they happen. We have time.”
“But what if they don’t?” I asked her, still half awake. Julia giggled and said, “They will. Believe me, your body will respond when it’s ready. Now… Just take a breath and let go. You’re not hurting me. Just relax. I’ve got you.”
I then lightly kissed her before putting my head down on her shoulder for a minute. Or… What I thought was a minute.
But… When I next awoke, I felt her moving over me and… Uh… Well… I guess she was right. “My body finally did respond when it was ready.”
How the woman moved me without waking me so she could take charge is beyond me. But I certainly will never complain. The whole experience came with a sense of peace and calm that was more intense than the previous few mornings, Julia still working towards sensuality and all things soothing more so than erotic, while making sure I did the same. It felt wonderful to be with her like that, “And I am grateful.”
At one point Julia breathed in my ear, “No matter what happens. No matter how much you hurt inside. No matter what… I am and will always be here.”