Julia was laying in her customary position when I woke this morning, which is straddling me with her arms and legs. She chuckled softly when I opened my eyes just before kissing me deeply. I became aware of the rain falling outside as Julia came up for air softly saying, “You look good. You look really good.”
She then continued, “These past few weeks… I’ve been watching you pull yourself up from rock bottom and it’s been awe inspiring to witness.”
Julia then kissed me again for a long moment before saying warmly, “I know you’re not out of the woods yet. Depression can be a mother fucker to shake when it takes hold. But you’re getting better at managing it. I can see it. I can feel it, too.”
“This past few weeks with you has been like living a fairytale. You really are magical in so many different ways, you know that?” Julia finished with a soft joyful tone in her voice. “And yes… I’m still proud to be your wife. I’ve never ever regretted being with you and I never will. Real men like yourself are rare. I haven’t ever stopped believing in you. Even over the past few months, despite your mental state triggered by everything that’s transpired, you continue to amaze me,” Julia breathed quietly before kissing me again, more deeply than ever this time around, wordlessly making her intentions clear.
When Julia came up for air, I tried to speak, but she playfully yet gently cut me off saying, “We’re good. No reply required. We’re good.”
As Julia spoke, she slowly made her way under the sheets, brushing my chest and stomach with her hair as she went. When Julia poked her head out from under the blankets a few minutes later she breathed in my ear, “Relax and enjoy. We’re good.”
And… Yeah… Things certainly were good. I drifted in and out a few times as Julia slowly rode me, her waking me at one point with a kiss just before the grand finale. It was pretty intense for both of us. Too, I could tell that Julia had gotten everything she wanted out of the experience and more.
When we got round, Julia went into her study to begin working with her clients virtually and I took care of some sites for my patrons as well. I have totally restructured my business, getting rid of a few clients that were nothing short of a resource drain emotionally and financially, replacing them with folks who had a realistic handle on the potential technology has to help them enhance their businesses and lives.
End result of this change? I feel saner at the end of a workday and get to work on real technical issues rather than the ones manufactured by those who are cheap, lazy, and uncooperative as hell. Even my new webhost clients are people who have a real plan, or at least are honest about taking their shots in the dark with the services they pay me for.
A few people in my personal life are no longer around because they didn’t like the boundaries I set. But all in all, things have worked out better for me there, too.